4:42am 

Woke up again 3 hours before my alarm (7am) which has been happening quite a lot recently. And when I stumble from bed into the kitchen to see the time it always seems to be 4:42. This time I had a good dream and right now I don’t really feel tired. Wait, am I still in a dream? It seems I don’t need that much sleep anymore. And having good dreams give us a boost? I don’t know. The first VV song is all done, mastered and everything. Really happy with it. But I wasn’t sure how I want to release it so spent yesterday figuring that out. I am very limited with my budget and technology so I am forced to really get creative with how I solve all the problems that come up. It can be very frustrating but immensely rewarding also. And I think this makes me stronger ultimately. I think I have a solution now so hopefully I will upload it soon. Today is saturday which is my day off. This month I am doing a 36hour fast once per week from friday post-dinner to sunday breakfast. It’s good to give my whole system a break physically (also no morning/evening practise or gym/running on weekends). I’ve been busting my ass at the music factory all week! But I will still be doing some basic internet music business stuff today and also working releasing the new song. Just not following such a strict routine. I will still play guitar and sing for 3-4 hours, mostly just playing through songs. And I don’t go out at all today. On sunday morning I have a 90minute walk before I break my fast. I’ve learned throughout the years that I feel best when I am living like this. My brain is so chaotic by default so it feels good to at least have the externals in order. Freedom is discipline! VV

09/05/2020

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