keep having these conversations with higher self and lower self. sometimes i just sit back into the seat of consciousness and watch the show unfold. the world is a crazy place. my world and the outer world (by world i mean the collective hive mind of humanity also known as \”the matrix\”). once you are receiving all the transmissions it’s easy to lose one’s bearings! and it’s easy to wanna stop receiving and go back to zombieland. ignorance is bliss.
but i need to rise up and answer to the calling. the conch has been blown by the gods. they appear in all kinds of ways. in dreams and songs and in all the subtle cues and signs in your entertainment choices. there is a battle for supremacy between god and satan. this is the exact same dialogue that is in my head and in my heart (core of being, not the organ).
here’s something i have been thinking about.
jesus was just a man like me or anyone who wants purification and salvation/liberation. christ is a deity or an avatar that anyone can identify with or follow. jesus went all in. he became christ and not only talked the talk but walked the walk. what did he do when nobody was looking? who knows. was he the greatest conman in history? nobody knows that either. did he make vegan pancakes?
charlie freak said he married mary magdalene and they had kids. he also thinks the earth is flat and eats only fruit. he’s got a big following on the alternative video platforms. they also think hitler was actually a good guy and all the holocaust stuff was all lies. adolf actually went against the jews who run the banks and fund the wars. even today, if you look at the investment companies on the board of the world’s biggest brands… e.g. larry fink ceo of blackrock.
i don’t know man… the truth is a bit scary. and i’m not smart enough to disprove any of these claims or steel man either side.
so this christ deity/avatar is there available for anyone if they want it. there are other deities/avatars too from all the ancient myths and religions.
or you can just keep living as the brainwashed avatar you have been programmed into since birth. i don’t recommend that because the marketing/advertisement world has taken over since propaganda machine took hold 100 years ago and you can’t really trust your own thoughts if they come from that. this is why you are still broke and miserable. you have been lied to and believed the lies. even if you think you are free, many of the lies are subtle and pernicious. thus you remain a willing slave because getting out is too much work.
i am kind of in some bardo state. half-way out, half-way in. not really here nor there. or as jesus said \”of the world but not in it\”. i don’t even know myself anymore what is real and what is fake, i really don’t. most people think i’m a complete nutter (some parts of me agree with some of them).
i never took the jab for you know what. and i don’t really trust the science or any billionaire who is telling us how to live our lives. it’s like fat people telling you how to be skinny. but i’m also not ready to jump fully down these bizarre conspiracy theory holes because to me they seem just as dubious as any scientific consensus or panel of experts. everyone is trying to sell you their potion and get you to join their club. for what? power.
if you really want me to believe you, stop selling me shit. make it all free. and engage with the public. get yourself out there. and care about things that actually matter. you need to have a sense of style and aesthetics to appeal to the artists. they are the people you want to influence, not losers who still live with mom.
and please don’t make all your content 3 hours long otherwise you are just preaching to your own choir. this is why i loved gary yourofsky’s work as an animal liberation activist. he never worked with anyone and he never went to any stupid vegan kumbaya festivals.
that said, i think some of us need a little kumbaya in our lives. we are all children running around pretending we are grown up. nobody ever grow up. humanity is about 15 years old. young, horny and out of control. full of spunk and venom.
the conspiracy nuts and hardcore science lovers/skeptics have one thing in common. neither understands public perception. they should all get together and merge. but if you want to present your ideas to the rest of us, please hire some designers, editors and publicists. and musicians like me. make your content beautiful, funny and brilliant otherwise what’s the point?
i’m feeling hungry, irritated and lonely. some moments are great and then this profound confusion takes over completely and i feel like i am going completely insane. i want to escape it or embrace it but not always sure which is which. and i can’t afford a girlfriend nor a dog. not enough money or time currently for that. would be fun tho.
next month gonna have to start recording those new songs. no more excuses. everything i do that is not that is just me avoiding the actual work, including this blog. especially this blog! haha
the other day when i got my blood checked by a hot nurse at the lab, i asked her what kind of tape she uses when she taped the needle hole on my arm… she asked what i needed it for and i said to tape my mouth shut…
for sleeping to ensure nose breathing throughout the night.
i almost wanted her.