babies

we all used to be babies
big fat hollywood babies
screaming and gurgling
laughing at beauty
waiting for our lives to begin
many decades into it
still waiting
still screaming
still laughing
but beauty has changed
it has somehow become
a ballerina of the shadows
a princess of darkness
aware of its own field of sorrow
these phases we go through
dont quite anymore
if what we fear is what we need to do
or if the fear is trying to trick us
into doing something
we were never supposed to
does it even matter
who knows
just want
to get lost
into the strange wonderland
of I am.