Friend asked:
What is my main thing?
What drives me?
The artist path is really the mystic path. They are truly one and the same. I dont mean chasing some external fame or success or something but i mean the actual creative process. And the way the great mystics of all traditions describe their understandings and experience is really exactly what i do in a way.
But its easy to get lost with it and get caught up in chasing some kind of success or fame. That is a different game. Most musicians, artists, bands and even spiritual authors, teachers, coaches, etc are imho more into the ego money power game. Thats fine if they want that but i wish they could at least admit it. They talk a big game but when i look at their social media, i dont see alignment.
Right now i think my main thing is healing my own body and mind until i can do anything else. Otherwise i will just keep repeating this same shitshow. But unlike before, now i have great FAITH in this path. All doubts are gone. I no longer need anyone’s approval. I know what i have to do. It’s not gonna be easy but i know that too. There are demons in my body, in my gut, brain, colon, everywhere. And as long as they are there, nothing will change. I see them now clearly. I see them in others too. This world is run by them.
But I have great faith in LOVE. And God. And that there is a possibility to get rid of these demons so that they no longer want to live in me. Meditation, sobriety, fasting, fruit, herbs and renunciating from this modern hell dystopia is the key to freedom. I no longer trust doctors, politicians, scientists, academics or experts. I think they are just as lost as anyone. They just like to externalize everything all in the name of profit.
Great question.
I am struggling to answer it concisely. In 2008 summer i went vegetarian, shaved my head and started meditating, reading spiritual books and started to really question the world we live in. Everyone thought i had lost my mind. I was confused why they were so angry. I just wanted to know what is going and be healthy and help others. My mistake was not leaving them all behind back then. I could have. But i didnt because i didnt know how to be alone and i still had fear and doubt. Maybe they were right i thought and wondered.
Since then i have been trying to figure out how integrate my music/poetry with this healing, spiritual journey. And how to bridge this gap between where i come from and where i am going. It’s been quite a ride! And i now know that its not enought to talk and ask questions. I have to actually become the bridge myself. That is the hardest thing man.
I have a line in one of my new songs “To be a candle, lighting other candles, while still burning as a candle”
THAT WHICH GIVES LIGHT MUST ENDURE BURNING
Man, just drop PM if it doesnt resonate. I have millions of abandoned albums that get shelved if they dont resonate or if they are just not flowing. I dont think its good to force things. Thats why i a lot of movies, books, albums are not very good. I can tell right away when they are forced. Write a novel or book that you actually wanna write.
Right now i have similar dilemma.
So the priotity is healing otherwise i dont trust that anything i do is with the right intenstions. I have to constantly ego check. I think the pure desire is to want happiness and health for us and everyone but turning that into some kind of “career” or money making product or sceme seems to me to corrupt it right away and then it becomes someone else and we are back to square one.
I think the great prophets like Christ, Buddha and the mystics from all the traditions understood all this.
When we are truly aligned with Truth/Love/Freedom people will feel it. They will want to give you everything. And we will tell them there is nothing to give because we already have it all.
So to answer your question:
I want it all and that is the most important thing. And believing that we can have it and already do.
GOD IS HERE
GOD IS NOW
GOD IS LOVE
GOD IS TRUTH
Is it faith, belief, knowledge whatever blablabalaaaaaaa
I dont care anymore about the debating and all that. I am okay with being crazy and dumb to all the “normal” people.
I AM FREE
I AM LIBERATED
I AM ALREADY IN INDIA AND BALI
EARTH IS MY HOME
Main thing is GOD AND LOVE
What drives me is GOD AND LOVE
I want to travel, speak, write, sing…. wherever i go. I want to just keep moving and explore the world.
All my friends and family are now strangers.
2024 I AM A NOBODY AGAIN
MY BODY IS A SACRED TEMPLE
No more drugs, poisons, toxic.
This LIGHT just wants to explode and be alive.
LIGHT POWER
So main thing is LIGHT AND LOVE
and that is what drives me and gets me up
I have no proof
I have no studies
No degrees
No job
I got nothing but THIS
Just to be alive and experience this moment
To keep feeding the GOD OF LOVE
I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED BY SATAN/EVIL/DARKNESS
I serve no army or government or nation.
ONLY GOD
and i invite others to join me
Most wont, i accept that. I get it.