Next tuesday I have full blood test that measures all the specifics, can send you when i get results…
I was born 1983
Height 187cm
Weight 95kg
I eat basica junk food diet, drink soda, beer, coffee, lots of salt, sugar, butter, dairy, fat… know none of it is good for me but i keep going back to it everytime i try to eat healthier or fast. Dont have any appetite for healthy foods and cant afford fresh fruit/veg. Been yoyoing back and forth from vegan/vegetarian (sometimes raw) to just eating whaever when i lose all hope.
Feel tired, depressed, anxious, no strength or energy to really do anything in life but just wake up and watch tv series or youtube and read books. Hard to be around people because i am so full of negative energy. Have tried therapy, yoga, meditation, antidepressants, microdosing, travel, girlfriends, community, drugs, alcohol, AA, etc. Nothing helps.
Want to do long juice fast or some protocol for getting rid of these demons. Get rid of mucoid plaque. But i dont know who to trust and I dont have enough money for expensive consultations or coaching or much money to spend on produce, juicers, blenders. Currently no job, living on government money which is about €300/month after rent and bills are paid.
I feel trapped but want to break free. Just dont know how and its really frustrating. Every time I try to get out of this hell I just never get anywhere and then give up and it takes me 6 months to get back to this point where I have hope again, watching videos of Charlie Freak, Josh X, Eric Dubay, Shane Sterling, Eli Martyr, John Rose, etc. They inspire me more than anyone else.
Part of me thinks this is all a scam and I am never gonna be able to confront the demons. I need help. I need guidance. I need money. I need happiness. I need God. I need Christ. I need something. I dont even know what.
Another part knows I can do it. Just gotta do the work.
Sorry if i was rude earlier, tried to book your free consult but never got the text.
Is it possible you call me on telegram?
Or message me there: t.me/markusnylund
Maybe we can do a 1-2 hour call on the weekend.
Just tell me what I have to do and I will do it.
Or figure out how.
Would appreciate it.
( might be Jesus.
I feel like there is some powerful inner light within.
That I am here to save the world. Save humanity from the world.
Back to Earth.
Garden of Eden.
Christ Power
Here is my music: vicevoids.com
Hope to hear from you.
Downloaded some of your pdfs already from Charlie Freak’s membership site.
A call would be good.
Perhaps you can make an exception.
or if you can recommend books, videos, courses
THANKS
Where do i even start?
I know i have to quit: alcohol, coffee, cocacola, porn, salt, sugar, oils, dairy, meat, fish, torrenting, swearing, complaining, negative thoughts, xanax, breads, gluten, wheat, ibuprofen
And probably leave Finland because this dark weather is driving me insane.
I need sun! I want to live in the caribbean and eat fruit, swim in the ocean and meet amazing people and have tantric sex with beautiful people and just love everyone. WILD LOVE!!! I want it all. Yes!
It starts here and now.
Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
Can you help me?
I will do whatever it takes, otherwise no point continuing life like this.
Is that all you got satan/santa? Because you cannot stop me.
Health
Wealth
Happiness
Freedom!!!!!!!!
Much love
Markus