escape

feel like i have just escaped a cult (mind prison), and now walking around thinking what the fuck happened to this world? ugly plastic cars, computer phones, people flying in all directions. girls dressed like whores but beautiful and tempting. men look like they are all on steroids and puffed up gorillas looking for someone to kill or fuck. in the forest i feel peaceful. and also at home surrounded by guitars, books, poetry, paintings, and peace/calm (ideally i would merge these two environments). have to relearn everything. killed my old self. he’s gone. back to the essence of who i really am. music, movies, superheroes, novels, writing lyrics and songs, playing characters, dance. i almost miss the simple confines of the prison cell walls i grew so accustomed to in recent years and decades. but i can’t go back. i can never go back. finally feel free like everything is possible again. But that cult really fucked me up man, changed me permanently in ways i am only now beginning to understand. Taught me many things i wish i could unlearn. Showed me things i wish i could unsee. That said, it was all part of this process so in that sense, everything is always perfect. tried to make it in that world but i was always some kind of alien no matter where i went and the feeling often overtook me to the point of madness, deep sadness and despair. i knew i had to get the hell out of dodge before this evil force kills all the light in me for good. the only thing that kept me alive all these years was these songs and seeing the people i met turn on when i sang and played for them and their eyes smiling and lighting up like xmas trees. this brought me hope and i can feel that same power when experiencing the works of the great artists and players. it’s a sacred tradition that needs to be preserved, otherwise the robots will win. for some reason i have been chosen to bring these songs to you as some kind of reminder perhaps and then who knows. go out with style. guns blazing. new songs + album coming very soon.  all for you.