Read bible after our call and now when waking up (gospel of mark). But every time i try to read it i just feel no connection at all to the text. Its like impenetrable to me or i just dont get it. And then i think/feel this will never be for me. As supposed to osho or meher baba or krishnamurti where every line is pure truth and i feel like i am in womb. I WANT bible to be like that and i WANT jesse to be one of those guys and to have all those pop quotes be “true” or like u say cant disagree with anything he says but i also dont know if i can agree. Like i would LOVE it if it was true and J could just fill that void but deep down i know nothing ever will and the only thing you can do is embrace the void. That might be the only way. J might disappoint you because what if were just not herd people. We will always be in the wilderness.
I think the virtues are not a means to an end but The end. So connection, health, creativity, community, etc. So dont need avatars or middlemen.
Maybe atheism is still the highest way if we really want to be free. Fuck god. Fuck jesus. They can all burn in hell.
Or math
God Game book resonates with me more than bible
Neither will help me make a lot of money so i can buy my 8string ukulele and nice place with a piano and some bad bitches
Hahaa
Fuckn hell Jason, i am frustrated with this shit. Everytime i try to pray to jesus i get nothing..no whisper. Not even in my own voice as conscioisness like “i am your voice markus, your higher self”.nope. just me in there peddling his shctick of beer and pussy.
Fuck you jesus why wont ya love me hahahaa ya fuckin cunt!!!
So then i think maybe bible is masonry bullshit the only true christ is in the mirror!!!
But why even call it that
It is what it is
There is no rest for the wicked
Waiter!!!!!!
Wakes up
Abre los ojos
BOOM
back to reality.
Work work work
Create the dream!!!!
ALL IN or dont bother….
Wilderness
Forsaken
Redemption
Salvation
Where are you God, Christ…
Show yourself