first you fuck to feel good
then you fuck to feel special
and then eventually you fuck
to feel anything at all
men and women
it’s all the same
going in circles
stuck in the game
we’d do anything
to not have to feel our pain
we’d do anything
to be free again
like being kids
when everything was fun
and you were so excited on christmas eve
could barely sleep
you move to new neighbourhoods
and the kids would gather
even back then
our personalities came out
some were cruel bullies
because their parents treated them like dogshit
bullies get bullied by bigger bullies
all just victims but kids don’t know any better
the hatred and violence go on
most people are kids who never grew up
and they are lost and confused
they fuck and have more kids
first they fuck to feel good
then they fuck to feel special
and then eventually they fuck
to feel something
anything
life teaches us how to live
but sometimes it takes a long time
it can take a lifetime
some never learn
they kill themselves or die some other way
they never paid attention
to the lessons life gives
to the opportunities
nobody can teach you anything
because bodies are just lost bullies raising kids
and we’d do anything
to feel alive again
so we fuck all night thinking we can somehow transcend all this
and that your lover won’t get bored of love
and that two can become one and we can conquer our demons
and that we will never abandon us
we live this fairytale
we get obsessed with ourselves
and with our dicks and our vaginas and our cellulite
and our asses and our intelligence
we are scared that someone will see us
as some human being who smells terrible
and doesn’t really know anything
and is sick and crazy and demented
welcome to the funeral of unexplored ideas
there will be lots of flowers and cheap vodka
worms and gay frogs will feed on the vomit
thunder and hell will penetrate the molecules in between oxygen
and somewhere in the universe
a lottery winner’s brain will suddenly exlode
and this will cause a new form of existence to manifest
in a completely different universe
somewhere inside our eyeballs