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sunday evening at home
making oven veggies
getting darker and colder out there
feel this emptiness eating away at me again
watching a show i dont even like
need to take this day off from music
fingers need to rest
but it’s hard to not have those hours
although i also wish every day could be like this
keep my phone on airplane mode
so nobody can bother me
had a powerful insight the other day
on my need for constant distraction
and getting high on dopamine
it’s really hard to go against that
but nothing really brings the lasting fulfillment
they promise it in the spiritual books
and health purification methods
just never could go far or deep enough
to know whether that is real or not
i dont wanna spend my whole life
wondering if i’ll get out of this
but what are you even trying to get out of
you have everything you need
and if you need something else
you are free to get it
so shut the fuck up, stop complaining
enjoy your free day
you have food, entertainment, shelter
your place is warm and beautiful
tomorrow is a new week
you will continue this path
life is incredible, so much to look forward to
don’t worry, you need to always be at war
just learn to rest and relax
smile and open your body consciously
dont get lost in your thoughts
trust the day, trust the reality
one day you will no longer get to be here
every moment is precious
LOVE is here, some call it God
you don’t need to call it anything
just let Love flow and conquer
you keep forgetting but that’s okay
keep coming back to the love
the truth, the reality, the power
you can watch movies, read books
you can take drugs, do whatever the fuck you want
your insight was complete horseshit
there is no escape, you can try though
you just escape into more escape
like falling endlessly through a blackhole
into more blackholes of wonder
and neon orgasmic pain bliss sorrow
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do it all, reject nothing
want it all and nothing
take it all, live hard and slow
fast and fake, soft and angry
YOU ARE THE FUCKING LIGHTBRINGER bitch
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