If Only I Knew

all those wasted years

buying shit I don’t need

all those lonely nights

staring at the ceiling

if only I knew
how easy it is
to let it all go by
if only I knew

all those messy nights

hanging out with people that I never even liked

only to pass the time

trying to build an empire of some kind

with building blocks of sand

if only I knew
how cruel you were
to let me think I loved you
if only I knew

being somebody I never was

locked inside that cage of misbelief

unable to escape

the tortures of the mind