iknowhowyoufeel

i know how you feel
when nothing feels like anything
dopamine levels oblitarated
from all the drugs and the lies
you try to find an ounce of meaning
of excitement, of purpose
why even bother
the sun is out
so you close your curtains
bingewatch Kingdom again
jay and ava in the pink motel
listen to Kensuke Ushio’s japan sinks
make a smoothie because
it’s the only way to get some fuel
for the system
call your therapist and doctor
make appointments and apologise
to friends and exes
now you regret it all
you feel so fucking happy it hurts
you wanna hang yourself
like Chester and Chris
whats a man gotta do
to get ahead in this god-forsaken world