i’m not meant for this world
so i live in my own world
like the flip of a switch
suddenly can’t do anything
all energy and strength, gone
all motivation and willpower, gone
all plans and goals and dreams and promises
out the window because nothing matters anymore
too tired to sleep
too hungry to eat
too lonely to breathe
too scared to die
friends and lovers give you that hollow stare
because they know how hopelessly fucked up you are
they want out
fight or flight
and you just want to tell them it’s not you
it’s this fucking evil tyrant in my head
that leaves me paralyzed
that makes every thought and concept
seem like it’s the same old lie that is stuck in time
there is no cure for this
you just wait for it to go away
until you get a moment of peace
knowing that it will take you again
possesses you like a devil
makes you want to destroy the world
you want everyone else to suffer too
even those who want to help you
just so they’d understand what it’s like
i don’t know what to call this
but the liar’s blues