Living the dream

Been micro dosing lsd last 5 weeks. Two times per week. It’s nice on the days you take the dose but don’t really seen any benefits on the other days. Still struggling with my usual chaotic mind and mood swings. I’m sitting in my underwear typing this listen to spotify do its rabbit holes thing where it finds music you might like. I am on the 90 day trial but don’t love it. I find it hard to decide what to listen to when there’s too much choice. I prefer CDs where you choose one album from your collection and put it on. I give away or sell albums i dont like. Sometimes silence is best. I got some potatoes in the oven. Been vegetarian since start of this month but not loving it. It gives me a lot of stress to worry about what I eat. Need to pack because tomorrow leave to estonia with car then ferry and rented an airbnb for a month. I will be very busy playing shows, making music, seeing friends and even got a job offer at the market selling fruit. This will be a crazy month and very different to my usual calm lonely existence. Apart of me doesn’t want to go but i need to push myself to sometimes do things that are so easy and certain. Trying to fall in love with this anxiety and stress but it’s difficult. Like my friend Rauno says and reminds me, just keeping turning the thoughts positive and be optimistic. I need to be reminded of this because i constantly forget and worry too much about pointless shit. I am doing this. Living it. Yes, still dreaming big but also living the dream. That’s all for now. Will write more from my crib in estonia. MN