what does a look mean
the way they look at you
if they look at you at all
how you look
how you dress
beard or no beard
2 or 3 month beard?
trimmed or wild
fabric of clothing
depends a lot on where you are
on the spectrum of the love hunt
the need to be noticed
the need to be desired
or are you good with just
being on your own
doing your thing
telling yourself that you dont
really need anyone or anything
because when humans get together
and spend too much in confined spaces
dramas and conflicts ensue
eventually you see the other
as an enemy and you wonder
who it was you were
when you thought they were
someone else
you end up in court
and then wonder why
they fight wars everywhere
every nation thinks they are
something special
you also wonder what is the look
of the young man in their late teens
who has no money, no joy, no hope
so joins the army to kill other men
probably in the exact same situation
to find meaning in defending your stupid country
for some constipated fool in a suit
for whom you are nothing but an ant
on the weekends you might get a leave of absence
go out to the club with your friends
to get drunk and laid and show off
you go take a leak and find yourself
in the mirror while one hand holds your cock
as you pee you feel the buzz of the booze
kicking in and think about the look you got
from that girl at the bar and you want to
fuck her and love her and maybe have kids
then remember all kinds of crazy shit
from the battlefields
you go home drunk and angry
watch porn and netflix
she thinks about you also
when she goes home
plays with her pussy
cries her self to sleep
the meaninglessness of it all
who will ever love me
fall asleep and look at visuals
wake up and look for love
in all the wrong places
go to spotify and there is a song
you have never heard before
by some artist you have never heard of
the title of the song compels you
so you click and listen and its like
the sounds understand exactly
how you feel and suddenly
for a moment it feels
perfect.