Feel so bad
worst damn feeling
i ever have had
these mood swings are killing me
the shame and hate, eating me alive
so lie to everyone i know
to keep them away
to keep them away
but Luckily i have my music and poetry
to get me through the days
got no relationships
nor obligations
it’s been almost 3 months now
since i saw her last
thought we would spend
forever together
but i fucked it all up
like i always do
i am unlovable and loveless
obsessed, possessed
too far gone
in my own manic god mode
got books, movies and music
to keep me going
but my fucking mind keeps going
in a million directions
wants me dead
not sure how long i can
keep up this charade