I don’t feel good today.
I don’t like my life, i hate my clothes, i hate my face, i hate my songs, i just don’t like anything today.
I don’t feel like doing anything.
I want to drink to escape this feeling.
That always helps.
I want to be successful. I know I should enjoy the journey but I don’t.
I’m just a miserable fuck.
Today I recorded a new song called Supermen. Tonight we are going out with the Cornerstone’s to a pub.
I did not play on the street today. I only do it for the money. I don’t like performing. I love recording and writing music. All the other stuff is not really my thing. Maybe it could be if I had a band. I’m so fucking bored just playing by myself.
I just want to drink vodka, fuck hot girls, do weird drugs, spend a lot of money, eat fruits and vegetables, make a lot of money and then give it to someone who needs it and then either do it all again or kill myself or do something else.
I live in Dublin. Got a house with 6 people. We are called the Cornerstones because that is our address. There is no number on the house. Just says cornerstone. I am Erik Patrick Cornerstone but everyone calls me ET. I feel like ET often.
Dez wants me to buy all these expensive cameras for capturing my life. Yesterday i got robbed while busking. What do you think they’ll do with the cameras? I already feel paranoid playing with my dad’s 2000€ Martin. I don’t want to be a fucking cameraman, I am a musician. What the fuck?
Gotta get out of the house for awhile and clear my head. I don’t feel like doing anything.
Everything is all bullshit. I am tired of this same feeling that comes back every few days.