Sep 18, 2013

how could you abandon me, when i need you the most. how you could you not see this, as if i’m a ghost. all i can think about now, is this poisonous love. killing me with happiness, until nothing is left but a race of death. back in the frozen hell, where i once belonged. where everything hurts, where hurt becomes the laughter of a madman. lying in a bed of torture, even darkness becomes too bright and getting brighter. trapped in a burning skeleton, if i only had some strength or even weakness. to scream, something. cant even whisper, anything. its nothing new, my innocent fight for nothingness was lost forever ago. only got time left, to haunt me with its infinite gaze. took all the pills, the drugs, the booze. became a false god, to no one. made false promises to false goddesses. then rolled off, left my calling card and went home. what good am i to you now, oh dark cold world. you never wanted me, gave you everything. standing at the crossroads, on my knees. take me, as i am. surrender me, please. forgiveness feeds, on sinners like me.