too much

sometimes this world is just
too much
so many books to read
so many songs to sing
so many places to go
so many thoughts to think
walk around
look at the sky
think about space
the stars, the sun
the gods and all that shit
body feels intense
mind noisy and restless
this is
too much
fall in love and break up
get a job and go broke
think you know something
know nothing
feel terrible and get meds
drink too much and attract bad people
wake up alone and afraid
emotional turmoil
too much
heroes dying on the news
you read and try to comprehend
why someone so beautiful and successful
had it all but had nothing
had too much
you live and learn
xmas comes and goes
another year, another summer
people die and are born
you get old and buy stuff
days and year and moments go by
used to be a kid and play all day
now you dance alone in the mirror
got your old favorites on
think about the good times
write stories and tell yourself this means something
feel death knocking at your door
come up with all kinds of pills and things
to keep this life going
you see the shine fade from eyes that used to smile
that moment in the movie
where it hits the peak
of suffering and greatness and beauty
almost too much
but you want more
can’t get enough of anything
you never really make it
your rock bottom turns out to be a mountain top
meet some great people on your way down
get high
write it down
go to sleep
world goes round
read about history
all the clowns
this is all
laugh and cry
a bit too much
this life
too much
not enough
i don’t fucking know
anything
this poetry just hits you
out of nowhere
everything goes on standby
don’t care where the fuck you are
this is the most important thing
like the gods are calling
the most important shit in the whole wide world
they need you
this is them talking now
you feel a bit special that they chose you
look at you all alone in bed watching shows on your laptop
hit the pause button to write all this just in case it will help you
i don’t know get wealthy and never have to work
eat healthy and go to a nice health club
get a nice place in the woods on the lake
dogs running in the yard
maybe start a family and go to hawaii
buy presents for everyone
lay down the law
buy guitars and go to f1 races
rain and snow and craziness and madness
make mistakes and lose everything
good for the story
want to be someone else
nothing is ever enough
too much
like iggy pop said
i want more
feel that euphoria again
one more time
maybe this time it will be even better
love everyone and everything
life is so sweet and sad and beautiful
this is just
too much
i love you nothingness my sweet end forever
oh the horror