Worth considering…
Hello again my love,
This email is kind of for myself also (as a reminder and solidifier of potential concepts). I want to break old patterns. And even when women want me I almost get more power from saying no to them than just letting the pleasure demon take me for a ride. Have done that various times in recent years. A single mother from Turku (a friends ex) wanted to come here from Turku and shove my cock down her throat and feel my cum sliding down her throat then get fucked for 2 days. I said no although I wanted it. If they want my eyes or my voice and my fingers and my cock, they must earn it. The power of Now. But what about the power of No?
Something I want to keep in mind when I go back to city life. Not just for sex but for everything. It’s a practise of the highest level. Make people earn your touch, your power, your presence. For me that includes musicians, artists, friends, jobs, auditions, media. Everyone who I allow into my world. Fuck the metrics. I am the metric. High level humanity is the metric. Ubermench. No more cheap thrills unless we want that. Sometimes that can be fun too. Sex in cars. Spontaneus creations. Whatever the heart desires. But there is always a price. Maybe…
Not that we can’t trust people but to make them earn our trust. We can test them. Get to know them. It’s like you are hiring people for your inner spiritual kingdom. This can take months, maybe years.
And I also want them to test me. I want people to have unreasonably high expectations of me as well. I am a God. They better see that and know that. When the mirror is clean, they will. They will find themselves in me and my songs.
You deserve love, freedom, happiness of the highest degree. You have earned my trust and that is a two way street baby. It’s okay to make mistakes and to let the shame and anger and jealousy burn. Just patterns of energy.
LOVE me forever my tulip queen
Thank you.
You’re welcome.
Yours
Markusivellian prince of Darkness
PS. Perhaps leave out the “big dick pic” part. That kind of shit can start world wars. Unnecessary hurt unless one asks for such details.