struggling to find my way back into it regarding performing or making new recordings public
that said, i do think i am probably the greatest musician living right now
i am peerless
my musical powers are wizard level, what you saw was just a glimpse…
remember my hand was injured and of course now there are new problems.
nerves…
and i am constantly working on it… more freedom… more purity….
so as an artist i feel like a God or maybe even THE god (of creation and art and beauty and destruction)
as a human citizen i have zero self worth
i am a splinter in the system
an error
i have no idea how to reconcile the two
love of self and divine mother (ultimate vanity)
hatred of self and species (ultimate misanthropy or something)
van gogh cut off his ear
mozart died broke
cobain blew his brains out
i have to think of something
some kind of publicity stunt, i dunno
i am thinking of an autobiographical documentary i will film with a camcorder with 2 hours of great music, scenery from my travels, self interviews and end it with suicide
post-editing will be tricky though when dead…
maybe in 100 years they will write books about me and wonder who i was
tortured genius
this might sound like a fucked up fairy tale fantasy
but what do you expect when you are the most interesting person you know
hard to feel lonely or have any motivation for living a boring conformist life with people and their mammalian baby fetishes and stupid gossip
life is poetry
lost in the night