WRATH

HAHA FUCK THIS
just when i think i have found some peace
things keep coming up
i make mistakes, dumb mistakes
repeat mistakes i have made a million times
overshare and overwhelm
emails that are too long
talk to friends on the phone
and they tell me things
i talk too much, say dumb shit
things i dont mean just to see
what it would be like to be someone
who knows things
been on a roll lately
happy and confident
but things keep coming up
that kill me inside, disappointments
feel this terrible feeling in my gut
feels like it is eating my alive
wish i could be perfect
and know what the hell is going on
not sure i will ever amount to anything more
than a guy with a guitar
who sings a mean ol’ blues
sorry if i let y’all down
did my best, not sure how long
i’ll stick around.
maybe get famous and call it a day?
honestly i think i thrive alone
keep my fucked up shit away from everyone
i will just make your life
a fucking disaster.
and not quit
until you
can feel
my wrath.
you know what
fuck off
i am who i am
i am done apologising
i am gonna just be who i am
and where it proudly
like a badge of honor
war hero purple heart whatever
fuck i love this shit
god damn it i am gonna share more than ever
you aint seen nothing yet
haha fuck this shit
fuck it all to hell and back
i am in LOVE with my disaster porn life