Category Journal

18+ years of writings from Markus Nylund’s life. Real, raw, unfiltered. Thoughts, fragments, truths. The logbook of a working artist building from scratch and overcoming perfectionism, self-sabotage and sharing what it takes to rise back up again and again.

gods are laughing book

  Chapter 1 The problem with socialism is that it makes life too easy for people like me who refuse to work. I haven’t had a job contract since 2006. That’s 17 years ago. I get money every month from…

United States of Self

It’s been a good day so far. Got up at 5:30am. Went for a light 3km run in the rain while listening to ipod. Did some calisthenics/mobility in the park. Then ran back home. Showered. Lit some incense. Meditated for…

Anxiety & Uncertainty

I woke up today at 2am. It was raining outside and the rain drops were drumming steel materials outside my window. Drum solo. The gods having band rehearsal. I knew 5 hours was not enough sleep (went to bed at…

Digital Suicide Machine

Been figuring out how to do this online thing for 20 years. Had a million blogs and projects but always nuke everything because my ideas and characters change so suddenly and extremely that i feel dishonest if i am showing…

G’Day Mate

Just thought I’d pop in and say hi. Alarm went off at 7am because i forgot to turn it off and my phone apparently is still in the self-help psychosis i managed to break free from. So i got up…

Born Again Artist

In case you didn’t know dear reader, I’m a crazy person. What i say and think from day to day is very inconsistent. I don’t take my “self” seriously at all because I don’t believe there is such a thing.…

Beard Growth Week 1

Seven days in. This is the prickly stage. Not so good for you know what. Unless she is into that kind of thing. Anyways, this will be an interesting experiment to atone for my failed beard trim operations when I…

Always Be Creating

Yesterday I did my first instagram live. And anyways, getting more into all this social media because I finally understood what all this is. My songs and website are my world. But all the other platforms are a place where…

Something New

I want to integrate all my passions and interests. It’s difficult because I am constantly being pulled in so many directions. I haven’t yet reached the phase in life where I decide to settle and say okay this is who…

Yoga Ruined My Life

when i was like 15-16 i read this book called zen guitar and it opened up a new world for me into zen and buddhism and all that although i didn’t understand that at the time. then i read orwell…