Category Journal

18+ years of writings from Markus Nylund’s life. Real, raw, unfiltered. Thoughts, fragments, truths. The logbook of a working artist building from scratch and overcoming perfectionism, self-sabotage and sharing what it takes to rise back up again and again.

Sep 12, 2013

Another day on planet earth. Listening to Chopin’s nocturnes played by Ivan Moravec. Trying to find some inspiration or motivation to go out tonight to play @CLAYHILLS GASTROPUB where I perform a few times per month. Right now I have none…

Sep 8, 2013

What do you get when you combine a highly-reactive, super-sensitive person with a world of hyper-stimulation? Me. This hyper stimulation is everywhere, screaming at us to take it now, now, now, hard, hard, hard, fast, fast, fast… and we do…

Aug 27, 2013

I arrived in Estonia exactly one year ago. August 27th. I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Here’s a little story of how exactly I ended up here. I had sort of reached a dead-end in my life. I hadn’t…

Aug 22, 2013

For the last few months I’ve played in a cool little bar in old town several times called CLAYHILLS GASTROPUB. I play there tonight also, starting at 21:45. I will play 3 sets of 45 minutes each. I switch back and…

Aug 6, 2013

So here is a continuum. disturbing <——> comforting Then we have the american dream. You know… own a home, own a car, get married, have children, work until old, retire, weddings, funerals, grandchildren, college funds, careers, new clothes, new tvs,…

Aug 5, 2013

What a weekend I had! Had a show on friday, saturday and sunday and they all were probably my best performances so far. Also went skinny dipping with friends in this swamp pond in the middle of the night after…

Jul 28, 2013

I’m in such a strange mood tonight. Not necessarily bad. Nor good. It’s like there’s this beast inside me that wants to break free and I’m on the verge of something beyond comprehension. Lady gaga called it edge of glory…

Jul 24, 2013

It’s 4:13 am and I just finished another song! Still gotta mix it and master it when I wake up and hope to get it online by the evening and then I can celebrate my weekend after all this hard…

Jul 24, 2013

For some reason I’ve always been a little uncomfortable with birthdays but today (or now yesterday) was a great one so what the hell, mineaswell share some love. The day has taught me many things about life, about people and…