All those bullshit mind games we play in between the doing and not doing. Motivation? Procrastination? Forget all that. Do it. Let the process become your motivation. Let it become your whole life, striving in that one direction. Focus. Everything you do 24/7/52/365 becomes apart of that. EVERYTHING. Sleep. Exercise. Work. People. Education. Entertainment. Food. Love. Thought. Behaviour. Choose wisely! What do you want? I’ll tell you what you want. You want the same thing that every single human being wants. We are not that different. Freedom! Freedom to choose what you do, where you go and live, who you are, how you dress, what you eat, how you spend your time. Freedom to say “no, that is not right dad or boss or wife or whoever”. Freedom to not be afraid of conflict. Freedom to resolve conflict. Freedom to do nothing all day. Freedom to buy a Ferrari. Freedom to feed a village. Freedom to go to rehab. Freedom to design your own clothes. Freedom to use the best technology out there to help you be more productive. Freedom to go meditate for a year. Freedom financially, spiritually, physically, mentally. Freedom to use time as you want. Freedom to create a free world for all.
You used to hate positivity. And people who were too nice and smiled too much. Ugh. You thought they were all fake and nobody could be that happy. All those smiling self-help gurus gleaming at you from book corners. People often wondered why all your Facebook posts and stuff are so negative. At your shows they wanted more ‘happy songs’. You didn’t think you were being negative, just real. This is how you felt. This is the world you saw.
Some of your idols were masters of negativity and although they had a lot of fame and fortune, most of them died young or with some illness that possibly could’ve been avoided without the negative choices they made (drugs, booze, stress, depression). These were your heroes!
You became a master of your own misery. Wrote about it. Expressed it. It ate you alive but you continued even as you knew you were being consumed by the monster. You somehow survived. Maybe it was the avoidance of recognition because you always sabotaged your efforts. Was this some kind of twisted self-protection mechanism? Did the gods know you were not ready and that we need you to be a light in this dark world and not another casualty of hedonism? You think that the gods were right. Perhaps.
You reached a dead end being the king of no-one. Nobody to help. Your village was abandoned and rusting fast. You wanted to get the hell out of there so you burned the whole place to smithereens.
You went to the book store and began reading and listening. You saw those same smiling faces again. They are still there, doing it. Could they be for real? You tasted the potion and it was good. But is it real?
You want to immerse yourself in this new world where positive energy flows. It feels lighter somehow. You don’t wanna go back anymore to the way you’ve lived your whole life. All that frustration and fear. So tiring. You just can’t do it anymore. And you realise that even the people who think they are positive are not really that positive, they are just in denial. That’s why you never wanted that. They are lying to themselves. But you want to help them.
Life is not that difficult when you have everything you need to be on the path towards freedom (before you die). This doesn’t mean you have to compromise morality. Or being good. Be positive but true also. Do what is right. Let that be your new drug to replace all that other shit. Go to bed at night knowing that you brought some peace into this world. Others will hate you and judge you and envy you just like they did when you were negative. Let them do their thing, let them get it out of their systems. But don’t take shit from anyone. Show them what is possible. Show them what REAL positivity is, not some bullshit smile full of make up and drugs. And that your door is always open for those who want to travel towards the light.
You have discovered something beautiful. Share it. Nurture it. Light the world on fire with it. Joy. Giving. Justice. Peace. Surrender. Acceptance. God. Science. Religion. Unity. They are all the same thing. Don’t let clever fools hijack the most powerful tools we have. They are all glimmers of hope and light to point us toward freedom.
It all starts with a thought in the form of a question. What do you want?
Positive mental attitude. You can find it everywhere. Even in the seemingly negative emotions like fear. Befriend fear and let it rest in your home.
Doubt is good, it keeps us from being pulled in wrong directions. Question everything but have faith that your doubt will help you in the end.
You are on the right path.
Proceed.
